When loosing everything seems so unreal!

Dear diary, Continuing from the Surprise, Surprise, surprise post I did earlier, I can truly say that, I lost all the talents that God has given me and it seems so unreal, I feel as if its so hard to even multiply again ....


Well Diary I cannot really write everything as I would be writing for many days in just one blog post.


It all started on Wednesday of last week, when I made a terrible mistake, but it was dont unintentionally, and as a result of that I lost a few responsibilities including in my chance of remaining in The Sisterhood


Diary I said to myself "I deserve it, because I did wrong" and now its for me to continue looking to God because only He could help me in that time of despair!


My dear diary in the same week on a Saturday there was a Sisterhood Pledge Night Rehearsals, and ask me if I went! I couldn't why because I lost the chance, and the only reason why I went to Finsbury Park was because there was leaders meeting, Vyg meeting and P4L. When I arrived many people was asking for me, and when they saw me, what more could I have said? I didnt want to stain their hearts.


And because I was an Assistant which is known as a leader the pain of loosing something this valuable really hurt me as it was my 4th time trying out. Going through this made me memorize a verse in the Bible that Bishop Celso Junior spoke about in the Leaders meeting.


Leviticus 4:1-3 -1 Now the Lord spoke to Moses, saying, 2 “Speak to the children of Israel, saying: ‘If a person sins unintentionally against any of the commandments of the Lord in anything which ought not to be done, and does any of them, 3 if the anointed priest sins, bringing guilt on the people, then let him offer to the Lord for his sin which he has sinned a young bull without blemish as a sin offering.


Diary what I got from this was that anyone who sins whether a leader of a group, or member of the group, the leaders sacrifice has to greater than the members why? Because the leaders should have known better.


Oh Diary and whom every is reading this diary may they not look at me any differently, of course I may not know who is reading but the ones who do know me, just help them to keep their hearts clean.


To be continued...