Dear Diary: MY NAME BEING THE REASON FOR PROBLEMS

Dear Diary: I though I was in no fault in anyway, but I thought wrong. I did something which was wrong in my authorities eyes but to me in no way, as usual I didn't see it until later on.

It was in a meeting where I received the rebuke of my life, for doing some things so small but the rebuke of the outcome was really big. I wore jeans to work which I wasn't supposed to, but still I had a reason for wearing it, I arrived late to work not unintentionally, I bought a travel ticket which costed me more than I was suppose to spend.

Dear Diary I had a reason for everything but still I saw no effectiveness of those reasons. And so the rebuke started: I THOUGHT YOU KNEW BETTER THAN THIS, YOU ARE TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR ACTIONS, I SPOKE TO YOU ALREADY, AND YOU HAVE DISAPPOINTED ME BIG TIME, ARE YOU SAYING THAT THESE THINGS WHICH WERE STATED AGAINST YOU ARE A LIE? LISTEN IF THEY ARE A LIE, TALK TO GOD AND HE WILL BRING JUSTICE, BUT IF THEY ARE TRUE YOU MUST LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES, JHAUN-NEIKI NEVER ALLOW YOUR NAME TO BE A REASON FOR PROBLEMS, ALWAYS SHOW A GOOD TESTIMONEY, EVEN IF YOUR GOING THROUGH THE WORST SITUATIONS. OK.

Dear Diary this rebuke wasnt a one to one rebuke it was infront of 15 people who also fealt the pain for me, after that rebuke my heart was in my head, my palms were sweaty, i fealt the pain and revolt in my heart. But diary it didnt make me hold a grudge against my authorities, nor look at him with bad eyes, nor to never speak to him again. But it lead me to change, it helped me to take reponsibilities for my name and actions.